1.14.2008

said i'm sorry, i had a bad day again

that's totally the main line from the song i'm currently listening to, and it happens to be very accurate for the crappy day i had. it was seriously one thing after another today.

lincoln and i were leaving the house for an eventful exciting day... i opened the back door and noticed that scott had left 4 bags of trash on the back porch for my to get (we dont' have a dumpster and have to haul trash to abilene every week, but haven't done so in about 8 bags worth- and scott could only fit 4 of them in his tiny car)... well, our neighbors dogs had discovered the bags of trash (all with at least SOME food in them) between the time that scott left the house and we were trying to leave- and had torn them into about 4 million pieces. there was trash EVERYWHERE. think about FOUR BAGS worth of trash... the bags had been torn apart, the stuff inside had been torn apart so the freaking dogs could get to the food, paper plates were half-eaten, and everything was just strewn about... awesome. i called scott and asked if the mess was there before he left, he said no, took the blame for the mess (why the hell would you leave trash bags outside when your neighbors have dogs?) and agreed to clean it up when he got home from work... a rough start to the day, but oh well- got lots of fun stuff planned!

so today was my first dr. appt for the baby. we were all so excited to get to hear the heartbeat and get to see a good picture and possibly even find out the sex (if the baby was in the right position and the picture was clear enough)... so lincoln and i got to my appt. at 9:45am, scott arrived at about 10:15. we were in the waiting room till 11:30am. i'm so not even kidding. we were all a bit grumpy by this point, but oh well. got in the exam room and found out that the dr. was not planning an ultrasound... so i asked the nurse if i could pleeeease get one and if she would sweet talk my dr- since that's the whole reason i brought lincoln and scott with me (and scott took off work for it)... so, she came back and said that my dr. had a c-section scheduled at noon and would not be able to give me an ultrasound. but if they could not find a heartbeat with the monitor, then they would do an ultrasound. of course, she found a good strong heartbeat (good news, but made me sad because i knew we would not get to see our baby) and so scott left so he could go back to work... lincoln and i stayed and they continued my appt. i had to use all of my strength to hold back the rush of tears that were ready to flow freely from my tear ducts. i've only been looking to this day forever, mainly because i wanted to be able to have a picture and to be able to show it off... lincoln was sad, because i had told him that he would get to see a picture... it's all the insurance's fault... i was supposed to be approved for all my pregnancy crap on december 6 and i had an appt for dec 12... well, i was not approved in time, had to cancel my original appt, got approved on DECEMBER 13 (how annoying is that!) and called immediately to reschedule my appt, but today was the soonest i could get in... and i'm far enough along to hear the heartbeat and not have to get an ultrasound to hear it, so yeah, it's all insurance crap.
so that started my day.
then, scott called to let me know that one of my tires was completely flat. spectacular. so i went to this place to get it fixed and noone was there. awesome. so i had to go air up my tire to get me to my hair appt in time.
got to my hair appt and almost cried telling the story about my morning... then as i was getting my hair cut, i kept hearing "oh my god!" and "wow"... apparently my hair is "awful"... not what i needed to hear after my morning. so yeah, it had been a looong time since i got it cut, but seriously, do you have to be so rude about it?

then we left there and i filled up with gas and started heading home... on the way home, i remembered that i forgot to get my effing tire fixed, so i had to turn around and head back into abilene... (somewhere in the mix i yelled "CRAP!" and of course my 3 1/2 yr old proceeded to say it multiple times- perfect.) so i got my tire fixed. hooray.

anyway, since getting home everything has been uneventful... i was so stressed and on edge already without having to worry about lincoln that i just put him in front of The Fox and the Hound and laid in bed for a few hours...now scott is home and i am planning on getting a serious back and neck massage and back scratch... then i'm going to take a shower in our great new (repaired!) shower and will probably crash early.

i am so glad this day is almost over.

1.09.2008

uh... title?

so let's see... i'm 13 weeks and 1 day pregnant. our baby is about the size of a fist.
i finally get to go to my first dr. appt this coming monday. i'm hoping there's some way (since i know i will be getting a sonogram- since it is my first appt) that we might be able to find out the sex of the baby. i am ready to start calling it a he or she and calling it by its name rather than calling it IT. i am ready to have my real due date... the one i'm going off now is the one i was given when i had a sonogram at 8 weeks at pregnancy resources...
i am showing way sooner than i was with lincoln. but i think that's pretty common with the second pregnancy. i have also heard that it is easier to feel the baby moving, much sooner, than with the first pregnancy. i am sooo looking forward to that. it will happen before i know it. being able to feel a baby move around inside you makes the whole miserable pregnancy thing worth it.
if we are not able to find out the sex next week, we will have to wait 6 more weeks before we are able to find out... 6 weeks sure doesn't seem like long! this pregnancy is flying by like i can't even believe. every day crept by when i was pregnant with lincoln, and this time i feel like i'm not getting enough time to appreciate the fact that there's actually a human growing inside of me. i do get reminders- like when i go to work and everyone's asking me about it- and at bedtime when we're all saying prayers. "the baby in mommy's tummy" is included in everyone's prayers. i am so ready to be able to give "the baby in mommy's tummy" an official title.
scott and i still completely disagree on a boy's name. we are supposed to sit down tonight and try to narrow it down to a couple of names that we can actually agree on. the name he likes so much, luke, i don't like. it's not a bad name, but i don't love it. i want to LOVE the name that i'm going to give to my child. i'm not just going to give it a name that's just "ok" to me. anyway, supposedly that's the ONLY name scott likes... it is the cause of lots of bickering between us. and it especially pisses me off when people are like "so how's luke doing?" i simply reply "i don't know who luke is". stop picking on me, people! i'm the one that's gotta push this kid out of my hoo-ha so shut up already!wow, what a random rant.
i can tell that i'm through with my first trimester. i feel like i've got a huge part of my life back. i am still a bit tired, but nothing like the complete exhaustion i was feeling up until about a week ago. i still feel like i need to sleep way more than i am being allowed to, but oh well. it's nice not feeling like a zombie all the time.
lincoln went back to school on tuesday for the first time in a few weeks. i thought everything would be fine and i would drop him off and it would all be like it had been... boy was i wrong! he had to sit in time out FOUR TIMES at school that day. he was in time out when i went to pick him up... needless to say, scott and i weren't very happy. he got plenty of "talking to" during the remainder of the day. his punishment was no tv or games on the internet (playhouse disney or nick jr.) all day. it equalled a long day for both of us. we were sooo ready for daddy to get home from work!
well i suppose this is enough for now. i will probably post again next week since i will be going to the dr. hopefully i will have big news about the sex of the baby to post! that would be nice....

12.27.2007

i've got nothing better to do

my blogging has become quite erratic as of late. i'm extremely inconsistent... i can't believe i used to blog at least once a week. what the hell was i talking about in all of those? i feel less interesting than i use to be...
let's see... i'm 11 weeks and 2 days pregnant. that means that as of next tuesday, i will be starting my second trimester. i am already 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy and that is quite freaky. i don't even feel pregnant yet. i haven't been to the dr. yet (damn scheduling issues- apparently the hoo-hoo dr. is really busy during the holidays), i'm not really showing (ok, so when i'm naked, you can tell, but it's not like i just run around naked all the time) so the fact that i only have 6 more months to go before i have TWO children just blows my mind. this one is definitely flying by more rapidly than my first pregnancy... i suppose because i'm so busy with my hectic life and when i was pregnant, well, i wasn't very busy. ha.
christmas was good. we actually haven't finished all of our christmas celebrations (tonight will be the 5th present opening extravaganza). i got my iPod classic which i'm pumped about. it's my christmas AND birthday present from my parents. yay. but how the hell am i gonna fill up this 80gb memory? ....i'm not.... ha. i got a set of really nice golf clubs from my grandparents. uh, i don't play golf... haha, well, scott plays and he wants me to learn to play. it will be fun for us to have something like that to get out and do together. lincoln also got a set of golf clubs. they're too big for him to use yet, but by next year he should be able to use them... scott is so excited about the idea of taking his son out and playing golf with him. what else did i get? ah, i got my perfume that i've been asking for- it's Escada Moon Sparkle and the name is queer but it smells amazing. i got several other things but i guess that was all my big stuff.
lincoln made out like a bandit this year. but why don't people give batteries along with their gifts? i can't tell you how many times lincoln has wanted to play with a new game or toy but can't because there are no freakin batteries. annoying. i suppose i will be going out today and spending about $20 just on batteries.
fireworks starts tomorrow. *sigh* i always dread going into this. haha, i mean, in the end it is definitely worth it, but i never look forward to actually doing it. thankfully, at new year's, we only open one of our 2 stands... and we still have 4 people working, so it's a lot less work for everyone. less stocking, fewer products, fewer hours of working, but also less money and that kind of sucks. but it all evens out since we don't work so much. it starts tomorrow and will all be over late monday night / early tuesday morning. so don't invite me to your new year's party, because i won't be able to come. ha.
um, what else? is that it? is that seriously all i can come up with? ...i suppose it is...
maybe you'll get lucky and i'll post again before january is over. :)

11.23.2007

scary stuff.

so, a whole lot has happened since my last blog...
we found out that i'm pregnant (yay!) and due in mid-july... i'm only like 6 weeks right now, but so far so good.
thanksgiving was amazing. it snowed alllllllllll day long (hard) and we ended up getting like 5 inches. crazy, especially for west central texas. but it was perfect. it melted early today, so we didn't get to play in it, but it was great just to look at.
hmmm.... anything else? well, i think that's all i've got for what's gone on since my last blog, but let's get to the point of THIS blog...
so tonight, we were putting up our christmas tree and making our annual handprint ornaments for lincoln... it was fun. lincoln helped with all the unbreakable ornaments and then we got him to bed. before too long, he was coughing, so we went in his room to give him some cough medicine. that, much unlike usual, was a fiasco. long story short, water got spilled all over his dresser. as i was cleaning up the water, i noticed that the carbon monoxide detector in his room was registering that there were 60 parts per million of carbon monoxide in his room. not scary, just strange... unusual. usually it's at zero. so i picked up the detector and carried it out of lincoln's room to see if it would clear... it got higher. 124 in the kitchen. still just weird, because the alarm was not actually going off. got to the dining room....136. living room, 145. getting scary. why is the alarm not going off? so i open up the windows and doors, put out the fire in the fireplace, and continue to watch the carbon monoxide detector. it keeps getting higher... and higher... 189, 240, 300, 356, 406, 458. yeah, uh SCARY. so i called the hawley volunteer fire dept. and ask them what they thought... we have a detector in the living room, and it wasn't going off- plus the one that was going crazy wasn't actually sounding the alarm... so i think that maybe the thing's busted. so the guy recommends (DUH) that i change tha batteries in the alarm that was originally in the living room... i do so, and it IMMEDIATELY goes off. REAL SCARY. so the guy tells me to call 911 so they can dispatch the fire dept. out to our house... we get lincoln out of bed, go over to our neighbor's (my aunt and uncle, actually) house... i call 911 and shortly thereafter the fire dudes are at our house... i took them in and they got a pretty high reading, though incorrect because i had been airing the house out. the ambulance comes and i let them check out lincoln (he's the only one with insurance and the one i worry about the most!) and he's all good. anyway, we're told to go in and pack a couple bags as quickly as possible and go stay the night somewhere else...
so that's what i'm doing now. we're at my mother-in-law's house for the night... tomorrow i will have to get the propane compay to go out to our house and make sure there's no leak...
one thing that really sucks, aside from the obvious, is that i was really looking forward to hanging out at home all day tomorrow and not even going anywhere. now we'll be lucky if we can even GO home tomorrow... *sigh*
so, it's super scary that i could've easily not known about the carbon monoxide in our house... i will have to be better about keeping good batteries in the detectors, and i will have to buy a new one to replace the one that SHOULD'VE gone off and didn't.i would say that we got really lucky, but i don't believe in luck. so what i will say is that God was amazing tonight. he helped us figure out that there was a problem before one of us could've gotteb seriously ill or worse, died. with CO levels as high as we had in our house, we very likely might not have woken up tomorrow morning had we gone to sleep there....scary.

10.31.2007

so much to say, so much to say

in case you didn't get it, the title of my blog is totally part of a DMB song...
i have been a truly awful blogger as of late. i have been busy beyond belief, and i know i say that in every blog but it is always true!
so my mom fell and broke her knee cap 3 weeks ago ago... broke it right in half, into 2 big ol' pieces... see photos:

she had surgery just a few days after it happened and is recovering nicely, though it's proving to be really difficult for her... she can't bend her right leg at all, so it's hard to sit down or get up. she can't bend her knee for about 5 more weeks, so that will be a major pain in the butt- because obviously, if you can't bend your right knee, you can't DRIVE. so my dad will have to drop her off and pick her up from school everyday (when she goes back, which will be next week- we hope) she has missed 3 weeks of work. i don't think she's ever missed 2 consecutive days before, ever. so anyway, i've been busy helping her out a lot... so that's one reason i've been busy.
my sister's big 30th birthday bash was this past weekend. i can't believe my sister is 30. it makes ME feel old. hahaha. her party was amazing. lots of people, good food, good cookies (y'know, since i made them and all), and just lots of fun in general. i think i had equally as much fun the next day at brunch. but scott and i surely did enjoy going to austin, even for just one night, by ourselves. that's right, lincoln stayed in abilene with scott's mom. we decided that since it was only one night, and it was a pretty much "adult" party, that we would be able to have more fun without him... there were a couple times when i wish he would've been there with us... like when we first got to the party. he would've been fun to have there for about 10 minutes, and then i would've wanted someone to come and get him :)
lincoln is dressing up as a lion tonight. it's super cute. i will post a bunch of pics tomorrow or something, assuming i get the time. we are going to a halloween festival that my parents' church is having... actually, 3 churches in their town are having the thing. they are closing down 2 blocks of downtown clyde and are having air castles, blow-up slides, games, booths, candy... he will have lots of fun. and scott is going with us, too, so that will be so much fun. we got a letter in th email from our church lecturing us about allowing our child to participate in halloween festivities. (a) we're going to a CHURCH festival. (b) scott and i both celebrated halloween as children and we're just fine. (c) we're not teaching our son to believe in witchcraft... we're certainly not sacrificing anything. (d) it really offends me that they think i'm too stupid to be able to make these kinds of decisions by myself. whatev. i was so mad. ...i know their intentions were good, but still, it's annoying.
i'm so glad it's almost november. i am ready for the cold weather, a fire in the fireplace, thanksgiving, etc. thanksgiving is my favorite. i loooove to eat :) haha. i especially love my mom's thanksgiving meal, she is a great cook. her thanksgiving cooking is my favorite food in the entire world. i also look forward to playing games with my in-laws. we always spend the entire evening cracking up. it's lots of fun.
lots of stores have their christmas decorations up already... oh yay i am READY!!!!
alright that's enough for today. adios.

10.13.2007

what day is it?

so i feel like i've been running on fumes the past couple of weeks... there has just been so much going on...and i've come to realize that it's not going to get any slower paced for the next few months.

let's see what i've been doing... lincoln's been sick twice in the past month, and we've had issues with his health coverage (until yesterday) and so that's been pretty stressful. we had to pay full price for one dr. appt and 2 prescriptions, and sweet talked the dr's office into giving me 5 days to be able to prove lincoln's health coverage before i owed them anything out of pocket again...

hmm... yesterday was the day of much driving. i had to go to abilene, then to anson, then back to abilene, then to clyde, then back to abilene, then finally home. it was ridiculous and quite annoying. i don't like living in the boonies...

speaking of having a couple of minor problems with my current situation, scott and i have been talking more about what we want to happen in our lives the next couple of years. we're definitely going to move within the next year and a half, because there's no way in hell that we will allow lincoln to go to the schools out here. and i think we're officially ready to have another baby. i have been ready for months, but now scott has finally warmed up to the idea of having a baby before too long. maybe we'll get lucky and it won't take too long...

i think my son has gone deaf. either that or he's just a little twerp and ignores every single thing that comes out of my mouth. plus, he's been talking back lately. where the hell did that come from??? he still has his sweet moments, but most of the time he's difficult... i think that will probably last until he's about 20. i know i was a pain in my parents' ass until 20. only i hope he's nothing like i was. i was an awful child. he's not a pain in my ass, just in case you got the wrong point... he's just super trying on my patience. i suppose that just means that i need to be praying a whole lot harder for God's grace and wisdom to be patient with my child.

i guess i haven't blogged since my nephew has been around. he was born on sept 27 and he is absolutely perfect. he looks EXACTLY like my brother did as a newborn. when candace saw matt's newborn pictures, she said, "holy crap, i gave birth to matt!" his name is layton andrew. his first name is after our grandfather and our great-great-great grandfather... it is also my brother's middle name. i wish i had a name that had been passed down through generations like that. so, apparently, the name is being used as a first name every 3 generations, so perhaps layton's great-grandson will have his name?

work has been stressful the past couple of weeks. it has become less enjoyable and has involved a LOT more drama. i work with all girls (well, except frank, our dish washer) and girls come with wayyyy too much drama. such is the reason i've never had many girl friends. they just drive me insane. but work isn't so bad that i want to look for another job. i look forward to wednesdays and fridays, when my hilarious friend kim is working. it was better the second half of this past week than it has been in a few weeks, so i guess you could say things are looking up.

my sister's 30th birthday is coming up. that is insane to me. she is having a huge bash at some mexican restaurant & bar in austin. i'm super excited about it. there's going to be food and drink and karaoke and cake and lots of food and friends. oh, and formal dresses. HAAAHAHA. i'm so dead serious. my sister is goofy as hell. she's wearing a quincenera (sp?) dress and has invited everyone to dress up with her. i love it. after all, it is her double quincenera. (i am on a laptop and cannot figure out how to put a tilde over the second N in quincenera)

i am helping with the clyde high school musical again this year. i am in the process of learning the music myself so that i can teach it to the kids. after 2 days i can already remember why i go all the way out there almost every day for just enough money to reimburse me for all the gas i use just to get there and home. i love the theatre. i miss starring in things and actually being onstage. being behind the scenes and helping is fun, but it's nothing like being in the spotlight and performing. geeze i miss it.

i suppose this is enough for today's post. i could probably keep going but i won't.

10.05.2007

New blog, just you wait!

so i have decided to start up a new blog because i've changed up a few things on my myspace. this blog will have the same posts as my myspace blog, but will be viewable to those of you who don't have a myspace account. anyway, i know i'm a nerd, but it's all good.